Thursday, June 27, 2013

Frustration

frus·tra·tion 
/frəˈstrāSHən/
Noun
The feeling of being upset or annoyed, esp. because of inability to change or achieve something.
An event or circumstance that causes one to have such a feeling.
Having knitting patterns, needles and wool and being able to **** every single pattern up.

I re-taught myself to knit and managed to make a brilliant brain hole warmer (see right). I then started and had to unravel many beanies. You see in not too much longer ($160 longer) I will be having my head shaved. It is winter so my head is going to be very cold, cold brain holes HURT… A LOT! So anyway I decided that since I was so very clever as to have knitted this brain hole warmer that I could and would make myself a variety of beanies to keep my bonce toasty. I am currently having fine motor control issues, concentration problems and most importantly double vision. I don’t know what possessed me to think I could manage beanies! 


I went to the optometrist today and he did a lot of test to see if he could find out why I have this double vision issue. Upshot of that was - My eyes are amazing. Not in the way that +Kim Robertson or +Lynda Cochrane have said. The optometrist is amazed that they react the way they do. They are also incredibly light sensitive. He can't fix the double vision with a new pair of glasses.

I've made an appointment with my doctor to see what she thinks before the optometrist has me off to see the neuro-ophthalmologist or back to my neurosurgeon! Back to the optometrist Monday to see what is happening. 

Silly medicos getting wound up because you've had brain surgery.

We will see what my doctor says tomorrow!

I am not particularly bothered really. I'd like to be rid of the double vision which is causing some phenomenal headaches and nausea, but I don't think that neuro-ophthalmologists are needed. 

No point worrying about these things. 
They can be fixed or they can't. 
If they can't - cope.
If they can - get em fixed
Nothing to worry about

I had my self-indulgent cry yesterday. Today I am determined as ever to get through it. I have come this far and survived. I can do this.

Saturday is the world wide 2 year G+ Anniversary photo walk. +Hendrik Ebber and I have organised the walk for Brisbane. I will be there with camera and going to have a wonderful afternoon. 

Right now however I'm going to go and snuggle down in my bed and have a rest while I listen to the rain. I hope you are all happy safe and well.